Property of Nestrana Furotis
I was warned about keeping this diary. When the Elder found me writing down my thoughts for the day, she snatched the page from my hands and instantly set it alight. « Don’t you understand the meaning of 「secret order」, » she asked.
But I’ve kept a diary since I was a young girl ! It kept me sane during the lonely times. And, honestly, I haven’t felt as lonely as I do now in a long time. So, I’ll keep writing, but it’ll stay a secret. Just between you and I, right diary ?
We’re leaving the boarding house for a new place of worship in Deshaan. Apparently, it contains a shrine that our leadership has sought for years. Rumor has it that we’ll be living in a cave now. A cave ! With bats and worms and such.
When I joined up last season, I thought it would be fun chanting and burning stuff. But now I’m surrounded by some truly obsessed people and will be sleeping in the dirt. I think I have made a grave mistake.
I need to leave. What have I done ? We have slaves working for us ! Some work until they die from exertion. And there is a monster … I don’t know what he is, he runs the operation here. I’ve read all about the Daedra that we deal with. I’ve even helped summon a few of my own. But this Baron Zaudrus, I’ve seen nothing like him. He’s massive and looks like he could tear off my arms with a finger.
We’re supposed to perform the ritual soon. They’re killing them. All of them. I can’t do this. I need to leave.